Spirituality, Paranormal & Psychedelics: Voice From the Unknown

My first macro dose was about 5 grams consumed over an hour and a half. After an hour, the family member I was hanging out with reported not feeling anything and was considering going to bed. So, we each did the responsible thing and ripped open a 3.5g baggie to continue the journey*. This goes to show that even emotions like ignorance and arrogance can serve a purpose.

This was her first time consuming psychedelics, and because I had been doing medium-dosed journeys for almost 20 years at that point, I was considered the veteran. After about an hour after the larger dose, she eventually went outside, and I was alone in the basement of our Airbnb in Ann Arbor, Michigan**.

Suddenly, the air had color, and a small flying bug had an energy field moving within the “colorfield.” Sitting in amazement, all I could do was observe. I had an odd feeling, almost like a presence surrounding me and the beginning stages of “no-mind.” As I gazed around the basement, I heard a man’s voice say: “You will find no face here.” Startled but amazed, I realized the presence I felt was somehow connected to the colors, the energy field, and something within myself that I, as an atheist (at that time), had never identified with or noticed. When I say atheist I mean there was no belief in spirituality, the paranormal, religion or the healing effects of psychedelics. Might as well call me a materialist - definitely was under the impression I was my body, I was my mind.

Later, when I told my family member the story, I found myself discounting certain aspects and minimizing the story– even becoming sarcastic. I started to feel like I was doing myself and the experience a disfavor. Not necessarily being judged, but an intuitive feeling of not being authentic to my inner being because it clashed with my atheistic beliefs. For many decades, I had convinced myself I knew that there was no god or spiritual life, which made it easy to tell myself it was “just the shrooms.” I didn’t understand this at the time, but essentially my beliefs created my own prison, left me with no key, and made it seem like I was disconnected from the mystery of existence.

I would continue to experience this voice approximately three more times during my psychedelic and dreaming states. If you want to get out of your own prison, identify your limiting beliefs and recognize there is very little that you KNOW based on experience . Free your mind.

By Zenedelic

*Be safe and aware of medical, emotional, and mental contraindications.

**In Ann Arbor, there is a legal mushroom delivery service.

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